Was trying to open a bottle of coke just now, ended up hurting my hand. Having a painful abrasion on my palm now, my hand was also cramped. Guess it's something which no one would have imagined. Yes, it's happening to me...

I've been taking cab to school and from school all the time. I just feel unsafe taking bus. Weird rite? All the worries that I have. Will I have enough strength to board and alight the bus with my heavy bag? Will I fall again? etc. I'm not "feeling" my legs recently. So strengthless nowadays. Guess you will not understand such feeling. Think positively, that's what I encourage my friends to do. However, subconsciously, I'm scared. I scare of days that have passed. As the day passes, I am weakening. I'm weakening at quite a fast rate recently.. I thought that I'm already used to it, but apparently I'm not. I just trying to avoid it. (Don't worry, I've not yet sink into depression, just wanna throw everything out from the bottom of my heart) I'm still the optimistic Daniel.

Quite frustrated about my entrepreneurship project, in fact, frustrated with all my project groups. For the entrepreneurship, I'm trying so hard to read engineering and electronics stuff which I find so hard to understand. I think I'm trying too hard. I don't understand why I've to do this. I cannot comprehend why the others can be so heck-care and uninterested about it. The engineering students are not doing what they ought to do. They don't know much about business concepts. I wonder what they are doing in the group. I reading and researching on aerodyanics, Radio control system, electronics making, engineering blah blah blah.. I've to do sourcing, logistics.. I've to worry about the financials, marketing, business plan. And you guys are just saying "I can't do this, can't do that, when the product is not defined" Do you guys think I can? Come on, we only have 4 months to do this, you can't just sit there and wait for this and that. Let's be cross-disciplinary. If product is not defined. everyone should work together to define it, to conceptualise it. to produce it. I'm not God. I can't believe it man, we only got a few more weeks left, and you all are like still so nonchalant. We have not even completed on the product development, in fact we're only at the early stage of PD. Gosh!!! Wake up!! will you.

My marketing project too.. I've to direct them b they start working. and there's one member who is getting on my nerve. Pls dun be a "puppet" I shall not elaborate on him.
Why am I so unlucky, to get uncooperative groups. I only got good members in year 1 sem 1. I miss working with them.

I'm subconsciously stressed out I think. Guess I'm trying too hard, but definately not gan chiong..deadlines are so near....
Ok, I've complained enough.. *breathe in, breathe out* ok I'm back to stable mode.. haha.. I pray that everything will improve when the term starts again. I better rest enuff during the holidays. I predict that I'll be ultra super busy when the term starts again.

*Smile* and face the cruel reality with bombastic optimism. =] Guess, I should try not to complain so much again, lest it'll affect my performance.